Kicking the Habit

I just realized today that I have a habit (or a strange addiction, if you will) of thinking badly about myself. Like how some people drink too much even though they know it's bad for them or like any other addiction (gambling, drugs, shopping, food, etc.), people may continue onwards even if they know it's ruining their life, their social relationships, and their well-being. In a strangely similar fashion, I keep feeding myself negativity. I keep telling myself that I'm going to be a failure even though I know it's not true and that telling myself this is hurting my self-esteem. Well, now that I'm aware of it, I'm going to kick the habit. From now on, I will visualize myself as a success. When I told that to my friend Alison, she put two fists into the air and told me to do the same. Apparently, a teacher taught her to do that for two minutes every day and said that it will release endorphins and help people to picture success. I told her that it was the same pose Olympic athletes did when they won a gold medal and she said, "That's why it works." I put my fists into the air and we just stood there in the hall, pumping our fists and dancing. Maybe this is a placebo effect, but I really did feel better. I passed this on to my friend Susanna and she thought it was amusing, but she was supportive anyway.