A Second Chance At Life

I had a near-death experience and it cured me of my suicidal thoughts. I was driving to work and decided to stop by the deli to buy something for lunch. I almost got into a car accident however when I realized that I had to turn left and that there was no left turn lane and no left turn light. My car was already angled in a way that it was hard for me to back up or to just go straight so I doggedly kept trying to turn left. Cars were honking at me from all angles and two cars almost t-boned me. Somehow, some way, I inched forward and made it through. I did make it to the deli, but by the time I got there, I was too shaken to even order anything. I just picked a menu and looked at it without really seeing anything. Then, after a minute of just staring blankly, I folded up the menu, put it back, and drove to work without buying anything. I can't believe that I was so stupid to risk my life for a stupid bagel sandwich and then not even buy one.

I was still shaking when I got to work and I had to sit at my desk for a minute and just breathe. I kept saying, "Thank you, God. Thank you, God," the entire time while I tried to calm down. I eventually got a hold of myself and decided to do something to change. I looked up tips on defensive driving, wrote them all down, and recited them to myself. Then I swore to recite them every time I got behind the wheel. I continued to thank God for the rest of the day. I felt like He gave me a second chance at life and I told Him that I was not going to waste it. I didn't want to commit suicide anymore. I now know how precious life is and how quickly I could lose it. I wasn't going to waste my second chance. From here on out, I'm going to be a lot more careful and a lot more thankful.